What do I deserve?
Anyone who I've recently talked to knows the answer to that.
They tell me, Landon, You'll be okay, everything is alright.
But deep down in all of your hearts you know exactly what I deserve.
And I know it too...

I don't deserve God
I don't deserve friends
I don't deserve life.

I've screwed up big time, and I can't take any of it back.
Where am I leading myself?
In what direction am I going?
Am I by myself?
Does anyone know how to help me?

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and he will make your path straight.

How?

How?

What If i fail again, how can I trust in the Lord, that seems like such a hard thing to do?
In three days, I am signing up for classes at a Christian University to become a Youth Minister.
And I don't even know if I can trust God.
I'm not ready.

There has got to be something more to all of this madness.
Something deep down that I haven't found yet.

GOD GIVE ME THE ANSWER, HELP ME OUT OF THIS MESS!!

How can God forgive and forget?
Why can't I forget?

Why can't I rewind time two months ago and take all of it back?

I'm scared of living, scared of what might happen next, what I might do to someone else.
I'm scared of myself, I'm trying so hard to live my life.
I'm trying so hard to Trust Gods plan for my life.
I WANT IT!
I NEED IT!

God be with me today.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for the Lord, My God, is with me.